One teenager in a skirt.
One teenager with a lighter.
One moment that changes both of their lives forever.
If it weren’t for the 57 bus, Sasha and Richard never would have met. Both were high school students from Oakland, California, one of the most diverse cities in the country, but they inhabited different worlds. Sasha, a white teen, lived in the middle-class foothills and attended a small private school. Richard, a black teen, lived in the crime-plagued flatlands and attended a large public one. Each day, their paths overlapped for a mere eight minutes. But one afternoon on the bus ride home from school, a single reckless act left Sasha severely burned, and Richard charged with two hate crimes and facing life imprisonment.
The 57 Bus is Dashka Slater's true account of the case that garnered international attention and thrust both teenagers into the spotlight.
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About the Author
Dashka Slater has written many books, including Escargot which won the Wanda Gag Book Award, Baby Shoes, The Antlered Ship, which was a Junior Library Guild Selection and received four starred reviews, and Dangerously Ever After. Her non-fiction young adult novel The 57 Bus won the Stonewall Book Award and was a YALSA finalist. She lives in California. Find her at dashkaslater.com.
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(Adapted from Sasha's Tumblr page)
Favorite vegetable: bok choy
Favorite animals: cat and cuttlefish
Favorite type of movie: dream sequences
Three best qualities?
My friends seem to like me
Of course I like hats
anyone who doesn't is wrong
I like compliments
I dislike compliments
I like my hair
I give good hugs
I'm good at finding potential puns.
If the whole world was listening, I might just rant about a bunch of things like gender wealth inequality why school is important
I like parties
I dislike parties
I don't really keep track of disappointments.
Ideal vacation spot: prob'ly a city with a nice subway
Thinking of things to get me? Try this:
A brass airship
A transit map shower curtain
A medieval cloak
A corset with silver buttons
A chiseled chunk of gallium that melts in your palm
A dress swirled with the image of a nebula
A Victorian house on wheels
Tights painted like a mermaid tail
Even as a toddler, Sasha was interested in language. Not in learning Italian or Swahili or Mandarin, but in language itself, its shape and structure, the Lego blocks of sounds that snap together to make words and sentences. Most toddlers are interested in the fact that the animal with two pointy ears and a long tail is called a cat. Sasha was interested in the fact that adding an s at the end of the word cat made it plural. "Look," Sasha would say. "Two cat ... sssss."
Before turning three, Sasha was matching sounds with letters — sometimes in unusual ways. "B is for baby!" Sasha would exclaim. "Y is for wire! Ten is for tent!"
At four, Sasha was reading independently, but had also begun contemplating the shapes of letters. "K is one rectangle and two parallelograms," Sasha announced at the breakfast table one day. "M is two parallelograms and two rectangles."
Two years later, Sasha began creating a new language. It was called Astrolinguish and it was the language of Sasha's home planet, Astrolingua. Written Astrolinguish was awash in diacritical marks, with lots of umlauts, accents, and tildes. The spoken language luxuriated in rolled r's and l's.
As a senior in high school, Sasha was still inventing languages, hanging out online with other "conlangers" — people who construct languages of their own. By now Sasha was working up a new language. This one never had a name, but it was spoken by the members of an imaginary agricultural society something like that of ancient Mesopotamia.
All languages embody the obsessions of the people who speak them, and so Sasha's language was meant to reflect the interests of a people whose world was dominated by growing seasons, grains, and harvests. Instead of pronouns that distinguished between male and female, Sasha's language had pronouns that distinguished between animate and inanimate objects. The word for sun was jejz, which was also the word for day. The difference was that sun was considered animate, a being, and day was considered inanimate, a thing.
Our language, English, works differently. We care a lot about gender, and English reflects that in its pronouns — she or he, her or him, hers or his. You might think this is just how languages work in the real world, but there are many languages on earth that are basically gender neutral, using the same word for he, she, and it, or not using pronouns at all. You've probably heard of some of them. They include: Armenian, Comanche, Finnish, Hungarian, Hindi, Indonesian, Quechua, Thai, Tagalog, Turkish, Vietnamese, and Yoruba.
English, on the other hand, poses a challenge for people like Sasha who don't see themselves as fitting into neat either/or categories like male or female. Sasha, like many gender-nonconforming people, wants to be referred to with the pronoun they. It might feel awkward at first, but you'll get used to it.
1001 BLANK WHITE CARDS
For their sixteenth birthday, Sasha asked for an accordion, a manual typewriter, a Soviet flag, and a new Rubik's Cube. They didn't know how to play the accordion, but they might have learned if they had received one, which they didn't. They didn't get the flag either, although Sasha and their friend Michael made a cardboard hammer and sickle not long afterward and hung it on Sasha's bedroom wall. At the time, they were obsessed with everything having to do with Russia and communism. Their friend Carrie, who took the bus with Sasha that year, remembers Sasha going on and on about it during the bus ride home from school.
"Sasha, once you get to know them, is very outspoken about things," she explains.
That's once you get to know them. When you first meet Sasha, they're quiet and shy. They have chin-length, wavy brown hair, a pale, round face, and thick, dark eyebrows. When they smile, their eyes crinkle into slits. They wear glasses, round owlish ones, and they don't always look at you straight on. As a child they were diagnosed with Asperger's, a form of autism, which can make them awkward socially. But it also makes them passionate about their interests, and the passion eventually trumps the shyness.
What was Sasha passionate about when they were a senior in high school? "Buses, cartoons, and the color purple," says Healy, one of Sasha's closest friends. To that you could add communism, games, the web comic Homestuck, and live-action role-playing, or larping. Also the ska-pop-punk band Sarchasm, which was formed by some kids at Maybeck High School and had once proclaimed Sasha their biggest fan. And veganism, although Sasha disliked the way other vegans on the Internet made such a huge deal about it.
Sasha's best friend was Michael, a tall, gangly kid with sandy-blond hair and thick glasses who always wore a gray beanie and a green army jacket. Michael and Sasha had been pretty much inseparable since freshman year, when they met while playing the board game Diplomacy. Over time, they formed the nucleus of a tight circle of friends: Sasha, Healy, Michael, Michael's girlfriend, Teah, and another friend named Ian. Ian, blond, bearded, with a habit of tucking his chin and looking up at you from under his eyebrows, was the one who never stopped talking. Red-haired Healy was the unquellable fountain of excitement who stole people's hats and wore her emotions on her sleeve. Cherub-faced Teah loved costumes and dancing — she and Michael were so close that their friends referred to them as a single person named Tichael. When the two got too cuddly, Sasha would get between them and shout, "Leave room for Jesus!" at the top of their lungs, like the chaperone at a Christian prom.
Sasha was the brilliant one, the one who blazed through calculus, linguistics, physics, and computer programming with a kind of effortlessness. Not that any of them were slouches when it came to academics. Kids who weren't into school were unlikely to choose Maybeck, a private high school with roughly a hundred kids that rented space on two floors of a Presbyterian church in Berkeley. In the tiny classrooms, students gathered around conference tables and critiqued the concept of America as a shining city on a hill, or compared the writings of Charles Darwin and Ursula K. Le Guin.
Teachers liked to claim that Maybeck didn't have cliques like other high schools, and it was true that the place was a refuge for kids like Healy who had been bullied in middle school. People were nice to each other at Maybeck, accepting. But the school still had social groupings, just like any other high school — arty kids, stoners, bros.
"We were the nerdy kids," Ian says. "The funny, sort of crazy, nerdy people who played video games and watched anime and read manga."
All of them were fascinated by games — board games, video games, card games, role-playing games, trading-card games. At lunch and after school they often gathered at a wooden table in the hallway that people called the hex table, even though, as Ian pointed out, it was an octagon, not a hexagon. There they played cards, particularly a game Michael and Sasha had learned from a couple of seniors when they were freshmen. It was officially called 1001 Blank White Cards, although they mostly just called it Index Cards.
"It's a game played with index cards," Sasha explains. "Not all of which are white and at this point very few of which are blank." The deck grew over time, with people pilfering index cards from classrooms whenever they wanted to expand it. If you drew a blank card from the deck, that meant you could fill it in, assigning it a point value and an effect, the more random the better. Over time, the deck filled up with in-jokes.
There was a card featuring a drawing of The Sun Also Rises by Ernest Hemingway that resulted in the player losing two turns as you read the book and are bored to death. There was a card that required you to talk in a Russian accent, a card that required you to lisp, and a card that required you to lisp while talking in a Russian accent. There were cards that required you to play an air guitar solo, speak like an English-dubbed anime character, eat leaves like a giraffe, engage in staring contests, and end every sentence with the word dawg. There was a card called Tower of Hats that required you to take everyone else's hats and wear them in a stack. There was a card that said Game over, Ian wins! that had been created as a birthday present for Ian. Sasha created a card called A Complete History of the Soviet Union as Told by a Humble Worker, Arranged to the Melody of Tetris, which was the name of a six-and-a-half-minute song by an obscure British comedy band called Pig with the Face of a Boy. Michael and Sasha were both obsessed with the song and sang it at every opportunity. "The effect of the card is that you have to sing the song or lose a turn," Sasha explains.
Aside from Ian's birthday card, there was no way to win the game, and no real goal. They just played until people had to go home. By graduation, the stack of index cards was about two feet high and had to be carried in a special bag. But at the beginning, most of those 1001 white cards were blank. Back then, Sasha was called Luke and they were referred to as he.
LUKE AND SAMANTHA
In middle school, Sasha was brainy, shy, and introverted, the kind of kid who is easy to overlook. Sasha's father, Karl, refers to that quality as Sasha's "invisibility cloak." "They blend into the background," he explains. "They've always been that sort of kid, that nobody even knows they're there."
Sasha didn't seem to need other people much; in fact, they often said that the world would be better off without humans in it at all. The world inside their head was fascinating enough. They thought about numbers a lot, and shapes, and the size of the universe. They drew imaginary subway maps and worked out math problems on a whiteboard the family kept in the breakfast nook. They were interested in space and Legos and trains and the ancient Greeks and they noticed things most people didn't, like the subtle shades within the green of a leaf, or the geometric shapes within a sculpture. They loved cats and had a habit of meowing. Sasha couldn't say whether any of this was because they had Asperger's, because, of course, they'd never not had Asperger's. The only mind they'd ever been inside was their own.
In sixth grade, Sasha started attending a tiny K-to-eight Montessori school with about twenty-five kids in each grade. They were in a mixed-age class of fourth, fifth, and sixth graders and there was just one other new kid that year, an apple-cheeked fifth grader named Samantha. She looked right past Sasha's invisibility cloak and saw a kindred spirit.
Samantha was a head taller than Sasha, with tousled blond hair, ivory skin that flushed easily, and wire-rimmed glasses. Her family moved around a lot, and at ten she'd already lived in five states and attended six different elementary schools. But she had never had a best friend. She was used to being an outcast, to feeling both smarter than other kids, and stupider. Her dad was a nanotechnologist whose laboratory was in their basement. He'd been giving her what he called "Dad Homework" for her whole life and she'd always gotten pleasure from demonstrating her intelligence. Yet she could never seem to learn the rules that other kids played by, the rules that defined how you were supposed to talk and how you were supposed to look and what you were supposed to be interested in. Rules that defined how smart was too smart.
Samantha noticed that Sasha wrote their name on homework assignments in Greek letters. She noticed that Sasha loved math and costumes and imaginary worlds. She noticed how passionate Sasha was about everything — their conviction that the ancient Greeks were better than the ancient Romans, that base twelve counting was better than base ten, that cats were better than dogs. She noticed Sasha's long eyelashes, and their curly, shoulder-length brown hair.
"Samantha has a crush on me," Sasha told Karl, with a kind of anthropological interest. And it was true; she did. It didn't take long for the two of them to become inseparable. Sasha adopted Samantha's way of talking — pronouncing "Fail!" when something was lame and "Lol!" when something was funny. They played Dungeons & Dragons and then left the twelve-sided die on the floor and invented magical battles of their own. They each adopted a tiny, invisible baby dragon — Sasha's was named Cinnamon, Samantha's was Pendragon. They invented stupid TV shows, unleashing a cavalcade of ever-increasing banality as they tried to out- stupid each other. They were so close that Samantha felt like Sasha was inside her head, thinking her thoughts before she'd even thought them herself.
That closeness, of course, drew the attention of their classmates. As far as anyone could tell, Samantha was a girl and Sasha was a boy. The teasing was merciless. Everyone wanted to know if they were boyfriend and girlfriend, if they were K-I-S-S-I-N-G. (They weren't.) It drove Samantha crazy. She once grabbed a classmate by the arm, yelling, "Stop making fun of us!" Her fingers hit a pressure point and the girl screamed in pain. Samantha felt terrible about it. But still. Why couldn't everyone just leave them alone?
It was part of that disorienting feeling she'd had for years, that feeling that everyone except her had been issued a handbook. Samantha knew it was important to be pretty and cute, but she had no idea how to be those things, or even why she was supposed to want to be. Her body was growing curvier. Breasts burst from her chest like twin cannonballs, but they didn't feel sexy and good, they just felt heavy. She hid them under baggy T-shirts and sweatshirts and watched the other girls come to school in tiny skirts and spaghetti straps, wondering why everything was so much harder for her than it was for them.
"Tell me how to be popular," she begged one of the spaghetti-strap girls. The girl's expression — her lowered eyes, the way she glanced around, seeking escape — told Samantha what a mistake the question had been. If you have to ask, it's out of reach.
Something was wrong with her, really wrong. She was angry. She was sad. She was afraid. She wanted to die. In sixth grade, she said so in class. Her teacher told her parents, who took her to a therapist.
One day Samantha told the therapist about a video she'd seen on YouTube. Two young women stood back-to-back performing a slam poem called "Hir," rotating to face the mic as they gave voice to a girl named Melissa and the boy inside her named James.
Sometimes she wishes she could rip the skin off her back, Every moment of every day she feels trapped in the flesh of a stranger.
Watching it, Samantha felt something chime inside her — a bell vibrating in resonance. Before puberty, her physical body didn't seem to have that much to do with who she was. People used to mistake her for a boy, but she had felt proud to be a girl. But now being a girl was like being stuffed into a heavy, constricting costume. She could barely breathe in it. The rules of the universe were fixed: You look a certain way and so you have to act a certain way and people are going to treat you a certain way. There was no way to alter it.
"I think I might be ... transgender?" she whispered to her therapist the next week.
"I don't think you know what transgender means," her therapist replied.
The bell that had been chiming inside her fell silent. She's the expert, Samantha thought.
It would be another year before she told anyone else.
Excerpted from "The 57 Bus"
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Table of Contents
Monday, November 4, 2013,
PART 1: Sasha,
1001 Blank White Cards,
Luke and Samantha,
Gran Turismo 2,
How Do You Know What Gender You Are?,
Gender, Sex, Sexuality, Romance: Some Terms,
Best Day Ever,
Sasha and Nemo,
PART 2: Richard,
Book of Faces,
An Old Friend,
Oakland High School,
The Princess of East Oakland,
The Best Mother Ever,
Hopes and Prayers,
Where He Left Off,
How It Was Before,
Now It's a Good Day,
PART 3: The Fire,
Monday, November 4, 2013,
The 57 Bus,
The Man with the Mustache,
The Rim Fire's Revenge,
The Ten O'Clock News,
I Knew My Baby,
The Interview, Part 1,
The Interview, Part 2,
The Interview, Part 3,
A Man in a Kilt,
This Is Real,
Still Kinda Dying,
Under the Influence of Adolescence,
Life at Bothin,
The First Letter,
Into the Briefcase,
Skirts for Sasha,
The Second Letter,
Let's All Take Care of Each Other,
What They Sent,
Y'All Don't Know,
God Is Good,
Does It Have to Be Me?,
Back at Maybeck,
Worst Days Ever,
PART 4: Justice,
Cruel and Unusual?,
Back at Juvie,
What to Say,
We the People,
Not Wanting To,
The People vs. Richard ____,
The Fine Print,
A Structured Environment,
Look Where His People Went,
How It Ended Up,
Then and Now,
A Level of Maturity,
Andrew and the Binary,
1001 No-Longer-Blank White Cards,
Some Gender-Neutrality Milestones,
Some Numbers: US Juvenile Incarceration,
About the Author,
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
So well told. The author held each part of the story up with care and heartfelt kindness. Each character was treated with respect and non-judgment. Love, empathy, and tears flowed as I read this.
Dashka Slater’s achievement in having written “The 57 Bus” is notable for a few reasons. First, she has composed a well-written and engaging work of non-fiction for Young Adult readers—a rather rare feat in itself. Second, she utilizes a writing style that blends journalistic and straightforward accounts of a quite brutal event with the voices of those whose lives were forever altered by that event. In doing so, she demonstrates the complexity of the issues involved in this tale of an agender teenager, Sasha, who fell asleep on a bus and woke up engulfed in flames after another teenager senselessly set fire to the skirt Sasha was wearing. Most of the “chapters” that comprise this book are no longer than 2 or 3 pages. While this choppy reportorial structure could potentially create an uneven staccato rhythm to Slater’s writing, instead it accurately reproduces the assortment of viewpoints and contexts that create an intricate mosaic around the unfortunate event, its causes, and its consequences. Slater begins by presenting an account of the event itself. She then shifts the focus to Sasha, a teenager who embodies the very meaning of intersectional identity—Sasha, assigned male at birth, identifies as agender or genderqueer—that is, neither male nor female. Sasha uses the gender-neutral pronouns “they” and “them,” a practice Slater adopts throughout the book. Sasha is also on the autism spectrum. The next section of the book focuses on Richard, who set Sasha’s skirt on fire. Richard, a black teenager, lives in poverty and has grown up surrounded by crime and violence. When Richard’s and Sasha’s lives intersect one fateful day in Oakland on the 57 bus, Slater focuses on the complex ways in which race, gender, sexuality, privilege, prejudice, and socioeconomics affect what happens next as she discusses perceptions and misperceptions of sexuality, gender identity, and institutionalized racism. The book proceeds at a brisk pace that belies its profound implications, and it handles complex and relevant contemporary issues in a style appropriate for its intended adolescent audience. I highly recommend that everyone read this book and share it with a young adult.
Never let your obstacles become more important than your goal. Amazing story of two teens
A powerful, poignant story about gender, choices and forgiveness. I didn't read this story, I devoured it in one sitting.